People

"its funny how the people who know us the least have the most to say."
this is in regards to me thinking about how [people] are always curious about my love life or ask or make comments are how I am with the women, or ask if I'm dating you.

It just got me thinking, they really don't know 2 shits about me, but often talk to each other about me. For example, [they] told [each other] I was now seeing someone, and [then] made a comment about it. so it's just like, ugh. im not that special, stop talking about me so much.

This was Edited to remove names ;3.

A good friend of mine sent me this message the other day. I think what really struck me is his quote "It's funny how the people who know us the least have the most to say." unfortunatly, this is so abnormally truthfull. That's the reason i agreed to write a blog about it.

The problem is this. If you know someone really well, normally you don't go around talking about them. Unless they're your signifigant other and you're fourteen and think "ohmigod somebody loves me" which isn't true, just get over it, you're fourteen. I don't go around blibber blabbing about Theodore all the time, sometimes, yeah. But that's just normal.

We seem to talk about people that we're jealous of. "Oh, i'm jealous he has a love life and i have no self confidence so i'm just going to pick on him about it." That's not fair either guys. Just because someone seems more better off than you, never means that they don't have their own problems.

For example, i have one friend on academic probation right now because he found alcohol in college. He told me the other day "You have a 4.0, you don't understand what it is to have a hard life." Excuse me. With everything happenning with my mother i don't believe that you know what my life is about, so shut the fuck up and grow a pair of balls to realize that drinking every night of the week doesn't make you a grown up. [i don't even know if he actually said that, i'm just kind of ranting]

Any who. As people, we need to learn to be the stronger person and look at someone else and say "Hey, they've got something good in their life, but i'm sure they've got flaws too." Everyone has flaws. Something mom doesn't quite understand right now. Everyone has permission to do something wrong. In fact, do it wrong! That's how we LEARN.

The people who know us however, sometimes don't even know us-- on the other hand. They think, oh well i know that person so well, i don't have to work on their friendship. WRONG. That's how we get left behind at college with no reinforcements and mental disorders. I don't even want to talk to half of my friends in college because i haven't even gotten a message that said "Hi, how are you?"

It's common courtosy to keep up with your friends ya know, and you're just a dick if you don't realize this. Friends are friends because we support each other. Just because you spread rumors and lies, does not make you a friend, and ignoring the person completely equally doesn't.

I feel like this blog entry was really crappy so i'm sorry...

The lasik consultation is tomarrow and i'm worried about everything from Manassass to Cuba. Teddy's laying here, looking extra cute, breathing deeply, and wrapped in my warm snuggly blanket, so i may force him to calm my nerves. What do you do when you're so nervous and anxious that you can't sleep at night?

Or is that just my mental disorders weighing in?

Also, what's your thought at seeing therapists, should you see them early? Later? Balloon up because of the crazy ass drugs they put you on?

Maybe i'll say something about that tomarrow.