What is Fiction?

Fiction is that thing that authors make money with. It's also the thing that i happen to need the most practice with. I don't know if i could call myself an author, but i do know i have a lot of drive to be one.

Theodore likes this blog better, it's more real than fiction-- well duh-- fiction is-- fiction-- and it's nothing more than that or less than that. It's not real, it's not my thoughts as abrupt as they may be, it's getting into a character's shoes and then deciding on how to act as that character.

I guess i need to work on my characterization. I've started this new character, and her name is Maddie, and she doesn't care about her dad's death like she's supposed to. People think she's insensitive, and people think she's cold hearted, but really that's just who she is, and maybe people should start accepting her as she is.

Maybe people will. You see, these are the things that people just don't know.

I want to write something that will sell. I want to write something that will cause a person to want more, and to read through it in a day because they couldn't put it down. I want to write-- fiction!

But i don't think that you actually have to include the zombies, or weird bat creatures in your fiction to have a believable fictional character. I just have to work on recreating the real people, and the people who seem so realistic in my mind. I think i can do it through quirks.

My characters are too perfect, they need to be fucked up so that people maybe care about them. My characters need to be me, and they need to be rounded with family, and supervisors, and the friends who don't mean shit, and the friends who mean everything and somehow i've got to convey all of that without bluntly saying:

"This is that, that is this."

I'm not a Stephen King, but i'm also not a Josh, and i've got to find some middle ground. Somewhere may just happen to be in blogs for now, and later on maybe i'll progress to something more private.

I badly need positive feedback on anything, so if you're reading this, and if you care, and if you want me to find myself as a writer and be able to voice my oppinion clearly through characters and subcharacters and plot...

Speak up to me now.

Please i do need some hope. Someone to tell me that I can do it, in a less squealy voice then i'm used to hearing it, and without all of the conditions.